i'm flying again...

i arrived at the airport today with one backpack, a oversized bag as if it was full of stones and my laptop. i am early this time, hoping to surf the free wifi. immediately went to the baggage scanning machine and then checking that everything is okay. no overweight incident this time. i planned things carefully. as i was transferring some shirts and toiletries into my brown blown up bag, a chinese uncle approached me.

uncle: &8*$%#^& (chinese words)
me: dui bu qi, wo bu hui jiang hua
uncle: hua wen? kwantong? hokkien?
me: wo bu hui jiang hua. wo shi malai ren.
uncle: ooo.. kenapa u keluar-keluar barang itu?
me: saya nak bagi berat dia cukup2
uncle: o.. dia tidak cek ka nanti? u dah scan tadi ma...
me: tidak apa la uncle. sama saja nanti dia scan semua benda lagi masa masuk.
uncle: ya ka?
me: ya la uncle.
uncle: bolehka bawak brg2 banyak ini?
me: boleh.
uncle: o.. eh, sekarang byk org pandai ckp cina ho..
me: ya la.. my mum is chinese
uncle: oo.. u myanmar ha?

i was dumb-founded, don't know what to respond.

me: bukan, bukan... my mum.
uncle: o.. myanmar!

cis. uncle ni mmg mencabar iman aku ni

uncle: u mau pergi mana?
me: penang.
uncle: jumpa sapa?
me: kakak. mau keja sana.

ekspresi muka uncle tu cam ckp: hmmm.. habis la negeri aku byk org myanmar, rimas. disebabkan tak puas hati aku cuba nak terangkan jugak aku bukan orang myanmar spt dia phm. saya dari sarawak.

uncle: o...

last2 baru dia buat muka paham. sedangkan sblm ni konfius je.. adoi, uncle.

new year's resolution

i used to love new year especially during my secondary school days.. shouting "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!" from my room to join the new year's eve psych throughout the whole boarding school. Little that i know that i will someday feel uneasy with new year in the future where 'past-eusof' was having blast thinking of what the new year will bring to his exciting days of youth especially the last years of his secondary school days when everyone was pumped-up to go to university. but that was then. now, the future eusof is literally getting miserable.. tired and insecured of his belly getting more fast forward than his life-survival skill. but the problem just wasn't giving up just on that, there's a whole list of things that needed to be tackled. nowadays, we're getting worried that our scalps getting thinner, eyebags getting bigger, relatives and friends asking when are you getting married etc, etc,.. but come one, lets just not waste our twenties.. therefore, this new year resolution might just be a good way to boost those self esteem back on track.. so, here's what i need to achieve this year, 2010!

1- getting fit. i'm not fat. just a belly problem but that will be taken care of. i'll take a gym membership and eat healthily for the physical thing and also health.

2- get employed. getting employed is not really hard in my profession. i might also think of getting active doing part time job too so i can get extra income. also will join competitions like comics thingy or logo design etc. (won't involve in architectural competition because too much fuss)

3- save money. i spent too much on food. i am not that fussy about food but i have the tendency to eat 'luxury foods' especially if i have friends around. i don't spent too much on appearance just because i don't think thats a necesity for the time being. but if i have my own money, i might be carelessly buy new things but just leave that to 'future-eusof' to handle.

4- appearance upgrade. i dress up lazily. i think. its just an ok level i guess. this year i'm planning to give a wardrobe makeover to stuff it with new clothes. that is after i get employed. maybe get some consultation of how to look more presentable infront of people from some 'experts'.

5- improve social and life-survival skills. as a start, moving to penang seems to be a good move since my sister lives there. therefore, i can learn how to adjust in a totally different environment and at the same time still have a support system (that is my sis). planning to move to KL but maybe in 2 years (or more) time when i'm fully ready. oh.. and smile more. some of my friends told me that i looked a little cold especially to people i just met.

6- gain working experience. i'm ready for work. i'm even psyched now actually.. maybe more like challenged. ignore those negative inner self telling myself that i'm not good enough.

7- prove to mum and dad that i can be independent. planning to give some money to parents when i started working. staying in kuching will make me even more spoilt. mum tries to lure me to work there by offering a 'vios' or 'city' but i declined the offer, instead taking the risk of venturing elsewhere but kuching.

8- be a better friend. i used to feel that my hands are tied, unable to comment freely to facebook accounts since i had a girlfriend but now that i'm free, i want to get out there and catch up with old friends and possibly make new friends. now, i should have a book on "becoming a good friend for dummies".not planning to be in a relationship for the time being.*singing all the single lads*

9- backpackaking!!!!! my ultimate resolution. i missed backpacking throughout europe. all those bittersweet memories are just awesome. where should we go next??... korea? japan? australia? morocco? china? US? germany?... anyone wanna join?

10- less listening, more talking. i'm seriously getting bored of being a good listener. its a good thing for a good-talker-friend to have a good-listener-friend but its really tiring sometimes because my own perspectives and emotions are thrown at the corner without anyone noticing it. even if they notice it, they will just pretend to hear you and seconds later, they most probably will continue to tell their story, ignoring yours.

that's probably enough for now.. alright. get ready! here i come.. *doing warming up ritual*

my best friend is now my foe

everyone have close friend or may i assume it is just that way even some people don't have any. anyway, i have this very close friend of mine who i knew since i was in my school days. back then we weren't that close. but as time goes by, we seem to click because the chemistry between us is so undeniable. i find comfort in his acquaintance. lately, i feel that he's getting sneakier to bring me down as far as he can, affecting my studies and life.. turning me into someone else who i really hate and feel disgusted of. if you're really thinking that i'm talking about a person.. well, i'm not. i'm actually talking about my enemy, 'procrastination'. ya.. cheesy right. i find it really troublesome for me to have this tendency to procrastinate everything in my life. i find it comforting but at the same time i know that i will regret it in the end of the day. you know that if you are confronted with a problem.. you might think to solve it quickly or to leave it alone until the condition is right or you might just leave it until it just cool off by itself? answer number 2 and 3 is procrastination. thats what i usually might do. this really have to stop since everything is falling out of place now. i started to feel like its just too late sometimes, that this is just me but part of me think that i still can change this obnoxious habit. where should i start?....

thinking about the past

i have a long term memory lost. seriously.. i have some memories in my childhood that i can't remember at all. but some that i still remember, clearly. a recent invitation to my elementary school reunion makes me realised that it was quite serious. i can't really recall most of the ex-students but for some reason, there's this sorta clue about a certain person.. but still i there's so many thing i can't remember. i can only recall like 30% of my classmates and the rest, vanished into thin air. i was not-so introverted person that i am right now. i was a outspoken kid who very loud and ready to pick up a fight at anytime. but not that i'm the school bully, i just "mouth" fight with everyone until i was half way through my secondary school years. thats when i started to shut up and listen and until today, i am relearning to open my mouth back.

some memories are still clear and vivid.. like when i 'main nama bapak orang' and found out by my teacher, i ran away out of the class when it was in session. i was in primary 6. what was i thinking?? huh.. at that time it might seem so funny and fun but thinking back about it, that was quite dumb. but i was just a kid. at the end i went back to the class and the teacher pulled my ears. there was also this one time, at a school spelling contest, i remembered that i spelled one word wrong.. i spelled it 'langauge' instead of 'language'. i immidiately realise that i made that mistake once i got out of the hall. huh. but non the less, my elementary school days ended so well. while more than half the class went to mrsm due to good grads to go for an excellence camp, i and the rest of the class attend 'ordinary' kelas tambahan for UPSR. it wasn't fun. at that time i really wanted to join that camp so bad. but being an under dog, everyone underestimated me, even my parents.. they say i'm not as genius as my other siblings. but i got straight As for my 1st big exam. even my class teacher was so shocked that i got it.

p/s: even how genius you are, you wont make it anywhere with a bad attitude.

^^^cocky one but whatever!! haha... i just need to write something.

i was thinking to shake a little bit this blog.. i will post cartoons in the future. that will spice things up a bit.

datuk lat at utm

my first day in utm was a mess.. finding a place to stay since i stayed outside last semester. this time i'll stay inside the campus. just for 2-3 weeks that is. later, then that i'll be spending my time in my beloved hometown, kuching. so far thats the plan. for long term, i was thinking to moved out of kuching after 2-3 years working there. hmm.. probably end of 2012. if nothing really happen then, i'll probably be going to sydney to find job opportunity. haha. yes, i partly believe there's something is going to happen anytime soon. its either doomsday or just series of natural disaster like volcanic eruption. either way, its not going to be very nice. many will die. i'm not planning to go to america since they have yellowstone national park there where its most likely to erupt in the near future. ok enough with 2012 movie.. besides, the ending suck.

back to the topic.. mm.. ya.. the first day.. so, when i went to the admin office to ask about my hostel, i saw datuk lat. typical me.. i'll just sit there and observed him. i didn't say hi to him. just a few months back a just read a bunch of his cartoon novels which we scavenge from studio. note scavenge means keeping other people's unwanted properties. those are comics left behind by our juniors in studios upstairs at the end of semester. but i have been reading his comics since small and i find it really amusing. he was in utm for karyawan jemputan or something. he looks so calm and relaxed. no formal suit or anything, just a hawaii shirt and slacks and of course shoes. everyone of the staffs are like busy kissing ass smiling from ear to ear, greeting the famous cartoonist when before he came, everyone was like so stiff and cold. typical of malaysians, like to kiss ass which i'll probably will have to do too..

i might want to look into comics for my side-carrier in the future. because this is what i'm destined to do.. lat is such an inspiration.. hopefully i can be as successful as him in the future, if not better!

repeat again..

repeat again.. yeah2.. the 'repeat' word will be a taboo word for me for the next 200 years. this is the second time i will be repeating my final year of architecture degree. the most depressed person would be me.. not my parents or my girlfriend or my lecturers but of course its me. why? because i will have to worry about my own studies and then worry about what my parents, friends and lecturers would think about me. repeat students would literally translate into 'losers'. yeah "L" letter for me.. hey, being loser isn't a bad thing i guess. well, most part it is but i just knew that albert einstein and adolf hitler was loser before they were to be icon of humankind. hmmpphh.. so much for the inspiration.

now, i'm at this lame psz library in the computer where the internet is sucky as hell. i can't even open google.. a while ago i can but now it seems to be blocked. i can only open blogger, yahoo and of course UTM's websites. looking around PSZ, not much differences at the book storage area but this computer area sure is different. i mean just the computers.. flat screens and the cpu is small compared to the normal 'clone' computers which is a good thing. i don't really know what i'm talking about so, i'll just write whatever that crosses my mind. someone just farted next to me. it doesn't sound loud but enough to be noticed in 5 meter radius. haha.. he sits back down. pretending he didn't fart. my guess is that he will walked out after this.


yup.. he did.

laksa trial

i just got back from kuching yesterday, bringing lots of the local food with me.. today, i tried cooking laksa sarawak. after doing some research on the internet, i bought some things at a supermarket near my house.the laksa paste i bought in kuching and all the other ingredients from local store. this is how it looks like:-



the taste? superb.. i never knew that it is very easy to cook laksa. well, there's a lot of preparations but the taste was worth the work.

raya 2009

To begin with, i'm not really a raya person. Since a few years back i feel that raya have no significance for me like we were just kids. but raya this time is quite something. First of all its our first raya without popo (grandma). she lived with my aunty, ee aling and her 3 children. every raya they will visit us and eat everything we serve especially ketupat, lemang, kari ayam, rendang but not really the confectionaries. if wa is celebrating with us in kuching, that would be better. her superb sticky rice ketupats and chicken curry is really tempting. we will eat only chicken curry for 4 days. Even though wa celebrated raya with us this year, popo is gone.. the first day of raya, ee aling came to visit us with her children and ee kuroi. certainly feels different. it feels like we're missing something. i know everyone is feeling so.. one moment there were chit chatting, and then silence. mum's definitely most affected by her death. she refused to follow us for raya visits. as the still follows partly chinese tradition to not celebrate festive seasons. So, we didn't do many visits.

My sis when back for raya this time. Its been about 2 years that she didn't came home to celebrate raya with the whole family. And wa also joined us. Wa have been like my mother since i was a baby.. so, she have a special place in me. With everyone here, this raya feels like a great one. wa cooked for us delicious foods.. curry and bubur pedas.. my favourite.

This raya also i went to my girl's house for visit. I'm not that matured person who usually do such matured stuff but this time i forced myself to do so for my own good and everyone that involved. I'd be lying if i say i'm not shaking and nervous, there were times i couldn't hide my nervousness but most of the time i was perfectly in control. but that doesn't mean i was doing well. i suck. i didn't mix so much with people around me especially those pakcik2 because the gap are to big. but there were some people who are in their 20's there and i talked a bit with them. In the end of the day, it was a good experience for me and also good for my future.


On the 7th day of raya, i went out for raya with friends to nourre's engagement. i assumed that as a combo of engagement, raya visit and reunion. not so many ex-schoolmate attend but it was enough for me. after the ceremony, we went to school.. revisiting the memories of those days when everyone are still growing up together as teenagers. many changes have taken place, one thing's for sure its a positive change. my school was named the best boarding school in malaysia last year. how cool is that? that's a huge achievement. we even met cikgu sharkawi on our way to exit the school. he looks different. looks tired and thin. especially the face.. but still with his boroi tummy. LOL!

new things in the city

oh kuching.. in 2 weeks time i'll be back in my hometown for raya break.. its always a nice feeling to be back. i can't wait to see new things there and snap some photos. kuching CBD by dzuren hamzah from flickr:


the newly completed BCCK, borneo convention centre from bcck.com.my

the new intracity bus (MBKS only) just operated 5 september 2009. bus for DBKU area are not announced yet its operation but hopefully the bus looks better than this. however the bus route plan for north kuching only covers one route that is from city centre to samariang. :(

as a loyal bus user since primary school (no choice, what to do?) until my matriculation years and sometimes now, i'm relief that the busses have been replaced and improved. this will help hundreds if not thousands of kuching residents and also outsiders to get around the city.


i'm not so excited about the design of the bus. thus, i designed my very own bus based on my imagination.. :)

buddies' convocation

People say there's always a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Well, in our case it took 5 years for us to find one and for me its 5 and a half years. Nevermind, yesterday was dedicated to all my coursemate friends especially my buddies who had their convocation day. Everyone have smiles on their faces with some having tears of joy. Honestly, everyone looks handsome and beautiful that day. For me, it gives me a boost to continue on with my final semester. Congratulations everyone!