raya 2009

To begin with, i'm not really a raya person. Since a few years back i feel that raya have no significance for me like we were just kids. but raya this time is quite something. First of all its our first raya without popo (grandma). she lived with my aunty, ee aling and her 3 children. every raya they will visit us and eat everything we serve especially ketupat, lemang, kari ayam, rendang but not really the confectionaries. if wa is celebrating with us in kuching, that would be better. her superb sticky rice ketupats and chicken curry is really tempting. we will eat only chicken curry for 4 days. Even though wa celebrated raya with us this year, popo is gone.. the first day of raya, ee aling came to visit us with her children and ee kuroi. certainly feels different. it feels like we're missing something. i know everyone is feeling so.. one moment there were chit chatting, and then silence. mum's definitely most affected by her death. she refused to follow us for raya visits. as the still follows partly chinese tradition to not celebrate festive seasons. So, we didn't do many visits.

My sis when back for raya this time. Its been about 2 years that she didn't came home to celebrate raya with the whole family. And wa also joined us. Wa have been like my mother since i was a baby.. so, she have a special place in me. With everyone here, this raya feels like a great one. wa cooked for us delicious foods.. curry and bubur pedas.. my favourite.

This raya also i went to my girl's house for visit. I'm not that matured person who usually do such matured stuff but this time i forced myself to do so for my own good and everyone that involved. I'd be lying if i say i'm not shaking and nervous, there were times i couldn't hide my nervousness but most of the time i was perfectly in control. but that doesn't mean i was doing well. i suck. i didn't mix so much with people around me especially those pakcik2 because the gap are to big. but there were some people who are in their 20's there and i talked a bit with them. In the end of the day, it was a good experience for me and also good for my future.


On the 7th day of raya, i went out for raya with friends to nourre's engagement. i assumed that as a combo of engagement, raya visit and reunion. not so many ex-schoolmate attend but it was enough for me. after the ceremony, we went to school.. revisiting the memories of those days when everyone are still growing up together as teenagers. many changes have taken place, one thing's for sure its a positive change. my school was named the best boarding school in malaysia last year. how cool is that? that's a huge achievement. we even met cikgu sharkawi on our way to exit the school. he looks different. looks tired and thin. especially the face.. but still with his boroi tummy. LOL!