i'm flying again...

i arrived at the airport today with one backpack, a oversized bag as if it was full of stones and my laptop. i am early this time, hoping to surf the free wifi. immediately went to the baggage scanning machine and then checking that everything is okay. no overweight incident this time. i planned things carefully. as i was transferring some shirts and toiletries into my brown blown up bag, a chinese uncle approached me.

uncle: &8*$%#^& (chinese words)
me: dui bu qi, wo bu hui jiang hua
uncle: hua wen? kwantong? hokkien?
me: wo bu hui jiang hua. wo shi malai ren.
uncle: ooo.. kenapa u keluar-keluar barang itu?
me: saya nak bagi berat dia cukup2
uncle: o.. dia tidak cek ka nanti? u dah scan tadi ma...
me: tidak apa la uncle. sama saja nanti dia scan semua benda lagi masa masuk.
uncle: ya ka?
me: ya la uncle.
uncle: bolehka bawak brg2 banyak ini?
me: boleh.
uncle: o.. eh, sekarang byk org pandai ckp cina ho..
me: ya la.. my mum is chinese
uncle: oo.. u myanmar ha?

i was dumb-founded, don't know what to respond.

me: bukan, bukan... my mum.
uncle: o.. myanmar!

cis. uncle ni mmg mencabar iman aku ni

uncle: u mau pergi mana?
me: penang.
uncle: jumpa sapa?
me: kakak. mau keja sana.

ekspresi muka uncle tu cam ckp: hmmm.. habis la negeri aku byk org myanmar, rimas. disebabkan tak puas hati aku cuba nak terangkan jugak aku bukan orang myanmar spt dia phm. saya dari sarawak.

uncle: o...

last2 baru dia buat muka paham. sedangkan sblm ni konfius je.. adoi, uncle.

new year's resolution

i used to love new year especially during my secondary school days.. shouting "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!" from my room to join the new year's eve psych throughout the whole boarding school. Little that i know that i will someday feel uneasy with new year in the future where 'past-eusof' was having blast thinking of what the new year will bring to his exciting days of youth especially the last years of his secondary school days when everyone was pumped-up to go to university. but that was then. now, the future eusof is literally getting miserable.. tired and insecured of his belly getting more fast forward than his life-survival skill. but the problem just wasn't giving up just on that, there's a whole list of things that needed to be tackled. nowadays, we're getting worried that our scalps getting thinner, eyebags getting bigger, relatives and friends asking when are you getting married etc, etc,.. but come one, lets just not waste our twenties.. therefore, this new year resolution might just be a good way to boost those self esteem back on track.. so, here's what i need to achieve this year, 2010!

1- getting fit. i'm not fat. just a belly problem but that will be taken care of. i'll take a gym membership and eat healthily for the physical thing and also health.

2- get employed. getting employed is not really hard in my profession. i might also think of getting active doing part time job too so i can get extra income. also will join competitions like comics thingy or logo design etc. (won't involve in architectural competition because too much fuss)

3- save money. i spent too much on food. i am not that fussy about food but i have the tendency to eat 'luxury foods' especially if i have friends around. i don't spent too much on appearance just because i don't think thats a necesity for the time being. but if i have my own money, i might be carelessly buy new things but just leave that to 'future-eusof' to handle.

4- appearance upgrade. i dress up lazily. i think. its just an ok level i guess. this year i'm planning to give a wardrobe makeover to stuff it with new clothes. that is after i get employed. maybe get some consultation of how to look more presentable infront of people from some 'experts'.

5- improve social and life-survival skills. as a start, moving to penang seems to be a good move since my sister lives there. therefore, i can learn how to adjust in a totally different environment and at the same time still have a support system (that is my sis). planning to move to KL but maybe in 2 years (or more) time when i'm fully ready. oh.. and smile more. some of my friends told me that i looked a little cold especially to people i just met.

6- gain working experience. i'm ready for work. i'm even psyched now actually.. maybe more like challenged. ignore those negative inner self telling myself that i'm not good enough.

7- prove to mum and dad that i can be independent. planning to give some money to parents when i started working. staying in kuching will make me even more spoilt. mum tries to lure me to work there by offering a 'vios' or 'city' but i declined the offer, instead taking the risk of venturing elsewhere but kuching.

8- be a better friend. i used to feel that my hands are tied, unable to comment freely to facebook accounts since i had a girlfriend but now that i'm free, i want to get out there and catch up with old friends and possibly make new friends. now, i should have a book on "becoming a good friend for dummies".not planning to be in a relationship for the time being.*singing all the single lads*

9- backpackaking!!!!! my ultimate resolution. i missed backpacking throughout europe. all those bittersweet memories are just awesome. where should we go next??... korea? japan? australia? morocco? china? US? germany?... anyone wanna join?

10- less listening, more talking. i'm seriously getting bored of being a good listener. its a good thing for a good-talker-friend to have a good-listener-friend but its really tiring sometimes because my own perspectives and emotions are thrown at the corner without anyone noticing it. even if they notice it, they will just pretend to hear you and seconds later, they most probably will continue to tell their story, ignoring yours.

that's probably enough for now.. alright. get ready! here i come.. *doing warming up ritual*

my best friend is now my foe

everyone have close friend or may i assume it is just that way even some people don't have any. anyway, i have this very close friend of mine who i knew since i was in my school days. back then we weren't that close. but as time goes by, we seem to click because the chemistry between us is so undeniable. i find comfort in his acquaintance. lately, i feel that he's getting sneakier to bring me down as far as he can, affecting my studies and life.. turning me into someone else who i really hate and feel disgusted of. if you're really thinking that i'm talking about a person.. well, i'm not. i'm actually talking about my enemy, 'procrastination'. ya.. cheesy right. i find it really troublesome for me to have this tendency to procrastinate everything in my life. i find it comforting but at the same time i know that i will regret it in the end of the day. you know that if you are confronted with a problem.. you might think to solve it quickly or to leave it alone until the condition is right or you might just leave it until it just cool off by itself? answer number 2 and 3 is procrastination. thats what i usually might do. this really have to stop since everything is falling out of place now. i started to feel like its just too late sometimes, that this is just me but part of me think that i still can change this obnoxious habit. where should i start?....