end of pre thesis semester

this semester ends in balance for me i guess.. well, rethink back,.. not really.. my studio wasn't going well.. i bet my studio marks will go down as said by dr hamdan. geez.. i am in deep shit. i'm just thankful that i didn't fail this semester. at least i've passed, that's the last thing thats on my mind. serriously, i'm not satisfied with my works in especially since my 2nd semester of 4th year. i don't really know whats bugging me.. part of it is my lazyness, and lack of exposure to the wider world of architecture. i know art and design is in my blood. it's just me holding back things and not letting it out.. i haven't found that art of thinking architecturally and i guess i just need more exposure of how an architect thinks..




Enough with that, may god show me the way through and hopefully i can score with flying colors next semester. Now, my pre thesis project wasn't a total disaster.. just lacking the connection of facts that leads to what i intended to design. Well, basically.. my thesis is about how to use architecture as a stress therapy element for urban dwellers.. therefore, spa pops out of my head.. thinking it is the most suitable typology that can relief stress. May i explain that when we talk about architecture, its not just the building form. Its also about the journey through the building and the surrounding context.. Activities also play role in doing so. So, I zoomed into the activities that i can add in the building that should compliment with the main subject that i wanted to bring.




So, the lecturers advised me to pick a target group to make it a stronger subject.. so, i chose youth since youth are one of the troublesome groups in terms of stress. One of the previous thesis which was by aini focused on yuppies (young entrepreneur).. which is kinda strong subject.. yuppies... but my choice wasn't backed up with a firm justification.. thus, it became an issue for my thesis.(T_T)



well, the panels said that i'm just CTP(complete to pass).. half of them said that i should fail, but lucky for me dr. Hamdan still see some potential in me and in my presentation.. sad~.. there.. i was speechless and powerless.. i did as much as i can and in the end of the day nobody really knows what will turn out. I realize that crit is so important in this stage.. u can play around with your design and miss crit as u like in lower years but its totally different at this level. I have very low trust in the inputs by one of my panels. I see his point of view always contradict with what i wanted to do.. I even ignored two of his suggestions.. one is to change my building typology into office.. and one is to build a high rise instead of a detox centre for youth which is underground.. Now, i can see it clearly.. what his ideas but however, i still have doubt of his ideas and i need to change the way i perceive his views. Nevertheless, my absence in a few crits and lack of progress is one of the major factor to my almost-failure experience.