thinking about the past

i have a long term memory lost. seriously.. i have some memories in my childhood that i can't remember at all. but some that i still remember, clearly. a recent invitation to my elementary school reunion makes me realised that it was quite serious. i can't really recall most of the ex-students but for some reason, there's this sorta clue about a certain person.. but still i there's so many thing i can't remember. i can only recall like 30% of my classmates and the rest, vanished into thin air. i was not-so introverted person that i am right now. i was a outspoken kid who very loud and ready to pick up a fight at anytime. but not that i'm the school bully, i just "mouth" fight with everyone until i was half way through my secondary school years. thats when i started to shut up and listen and until today, i am relearning to open my mouth back.

some memories are still clear and vivid.. like when i 'main nama bapak orang' and found out by my teacher, i ran away out of the class when it was in session. i was in primary 6. what was i thinking?? huh.. at that time it might seem so funny and fun but thinking back about it, that was quite dumb. but i was just a kid. at the end i went back to the class and the teacher pulled my ears. there was also this one time, at a school spelling contest, i remembered that i spelled one word wrong.. i spelled it 'langauge' instead of 'language'. i immidiately realise that i made that mistake once i got out of the hall. huh. but non the less, my elementary school days ended so well. while more than half the class went to mrsm due to good grads to go for an excellence camp, i and the rest of the class attend 'ordinary' kelas tambahan for UPSR. it wasn't fun. at that time i really wanted to join that camp so bad. but being an under dog, everyone underestimated me, even my parents.. they say i'm not as genius as my other siblings. but i got straight As for my 1st big exam. even my class teacher was so shocked that i got it.

p/s: even how genius you are, you wont make it anywhere with a bad attitude.

^^^cocky one but whatever!! haha... i just need to write something.

i was thinking to shake a little bit this blog.. i will post cartoons in the future. that will spice things up a bit.

datuk lat at utm

my first day in utm was a mess.. finding a place to stay since i stayed outside last semester. this time i'll stay inside the campus. just for 2-3 weeks that is. later, then that i'll be spending my time in my beloved hometown, kuching. so far thats the plan. for long term, i was thinking to moved out of kuching after 2-3 years working there. hmm.. probably end of 2012. if nothing really happen then, i'll probably be going to sydney to find job opportunity. haha. yes, i partly believe there's something is going to happen anytime soon. its either doomsday or just series of natural disaster like volcanic eruption. either way, its not going to be very nice. many will die. i'm not planning to go to america since they have yellowstone national park there where its most likely to erupt in the near future. ok enough with 2012 movie.. besides, the ending suck.

back to the topic.. mm.. ya.. the first day.. so, when i went to the admin office to ask about my hostel, i saw datuk lat. typical me.. i'll just sit there and observed him. i didn't say hi to him. just a few months back a just read a bunch of his cartoon novels which we scavenge from studio. note scavenge means keeping other people's unwanted properties. those are comics left behind by our juniors in studios upstairs at the end of semester. but i have been reading his comics since small and i find it really amusing. he was in utm for karyawan jemputan or something. he looks so calm and relaxed. no formal suit or anything, just a hawaii shirt and slacks and of course shoes. everyone of the staffs are like busy kissing ass smiling from ear to ear, greeting the famous cartoonist when before he came, everyone was like so stiff and cold. typical of malaysians, like to kiss ass which i'll probably will have to do too..

i might want to look into comics for my side-carrier in the future. because this is what i'm destined to do.. lat is such an inspiration.. hopefully i can be as successful as him in the future, if not better!

repeat again..

repeat again.. yeah2.. the 'repeat' word will be a taboo word for me for the next 200 years. this is the second time i will be repeating my final year of architecture degree. the most depressed person would be me.. not my parents or my girlfriend or my lecturers but of course its me. why? because i will have to worry about my own studies and then worry about what my parents, friends and lecturers would think about me. repeat students would literally translate into 'losers'. yeah "L" letter for me.. hey, being loser isn't a bad thing i guess. well, most part it is but i just knew that albert einstein and adolf hitler was loser before they were to be icon of humankind. hmmpphh.. so much for the inspiration.

now, i'm at this lame psz library in the computer where the internet is sucky as hell. i can't even open google.. a while ago i can but now it seems to be blocked. i can only open blogger, yahoo and of course UTM's websites. looking around PSZ, not much differences at the book storage area but this computer area sure is different. i mean just the computers.. flat screens and the cpu is small compared to the normal 'clone' computers which is a good thing. i don't really know what i'm talking about so, i'll just write whatever that crosses my mind. someone just farted next to me. it doesn't sound loud but enough to be noticed in 5 meter radius. haha.. he sits back down. pretending he didn't fart. my guess is that he will walked out after this.


yup.. he did.